Monday, December 26, 2011

Sometimes its playing the game we enjoy, not the prize

the Christmas season always reminds me that the excitement of Christmas day is really what makes the season so exciting.  I think what most of people don't realize is that it is the pursuit of happiness that is really the fun part of living.  it is very often that people want something or have a goal.  once they get this thing, or go to this place, or get with a certain person - the excitement fades away slowly.  this is because all material things, no matter what they are, do not bring happiness.  the pursuit is what drives us and motivates us.  i think that when you realize this concept of materialism, you will be much happier.  appreciate what you have, look for the things that can make your life better - but don't think it brings happiness.  happiness comes from within by being true to your self.  knowing who you are and being happy with yourself will bring happiness.  i can always tell when people are truly happy because they seem uninhibited and child-like.  over time, we lose the child within and "grow up."  it is the growing up part that limits us and muddies the water to true happiness.  i try to focus on learning new things, doing things that i enjoy, and appreciating the good things (and people) that i have in my life.  i think that is a good way to start each day!
 

Friday, December 9, 2011

i woke up today depressed



today i woke up feeling depressed.  of course it is not the first time i just did not feel like getting up and playing the game of life - these things happen.  i felt tired, defeated and just want to go back to  bed.  work, money, people, things just get on my nerves and i don’t even want to do it today.  
i am sure that everyone gets bummed sometimes.  surely i am not the only one.  there are some things, though, that make me feel better.  I know that emotions sometimes run in cycles.  i may be sad today or bummed out, but that will change.  pretty soon i will turn my melancholy mood into being motivated again and ready to beat the odds.  the next step will be to come up with some plans and affirmations to get things going my way.  i recently read an article where a fan of Brad Pitt publicly told him at a movie premier that he was considering committing suicide.  Brad Pitt told him that life has its ups and downs and that it is cyclical.  when you are up, you’re up and when you’re down, you’re down.  i thought this was pretty cool because Brad Pitt basically threw a “all things will pass” out at a very good time.  good for him.
I have come to realize that when you go against your true nature, you are unhappy.  when you try to be a certain type of person because you think others will like you, you will be unhappy.  when you try to pretend you like something or somebody, you will be unhappy.  i found out that you need to be yourself, and in order to do that, you have to accept yourself.  once i started to do that (despite what other people think) things started to get better.  i would still like to be rich and not work.  i also would like to live on a beach and sit by the sea all day long - but for now i will just be true to myself and things will be a little better.  

being depressed is like having an ache sometimes.  it takes a long time to go away, and you are always thinking of it.  once your focus changes, you can look towards a more positive outlook